Rhiannonhero
Rating: NC-17
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Gale was the one who started it and if he tells you something different, he's lying.
I mean, sure, when he said he was straight, I tried not to snort and cough, because making any kind of disbelieving comment about an individual's stated sexual preference can lead to a busted lip. And, besides, I'm just not that rude. So when Gale claimed to be straight, I nodded and took another sip of coffee to cover my smirk.
Straight, my ass.
The way that guy kissed? Right.
Besides, even some of the better actors on the set had a hard time making their same-sex kisses look realistic. I'm not disparaging the other actors or saying they aren't doing a great job, but as a gay man, I can sense that thread of discomfort running through a straight guy's body, even if I'm not the one doing the kissing. There's just something unnatural about it, something strained.
Gale doesn't have that thread. Oh, and he's not a bad actor, either. He's really grown a lot over the last three years. Shit, I think I'm digging myself in even deeper. Never mind. That's all beside the point anyway.
The point is, was, and always will be that Gale started it.
It began with staring. Much too long looks directed my way from across the room, or even from across the table. It was as though he forgot that I could see him. He just stared and stared at my mouth and licked his lips.
That's the international signal for "I want to fuck you senseless". Everyone knows that.
But it was like he was oblivious to it, because when he'd snap out of it, he was just his usual normal self.
Then it moved on to touching. I'd be standing in the corner reading over my script, waiting for my entrance when he'd appear at my side, much too close and his hand on my shoulder. If I tried to move away, he'd usually let me go, but sometimes, he followed me and wouldn't let me escape from the heat of his body against my back.
Then it shifted into fondling. I'm not sure what else you'd call it. He played with my hair while he talked about the cast poker game the night before, cupped the back of my head and used his other hand to brush hair from my face. He'd let his thumb trail down the side of my neck and dip his fingers into the collar of my shirt. He went beyond touching; it was, like I said, fondling.
I tried to play it cool because, honestly, it didn't seem like Gale even knew that he was doing it. It seemed as though the casual touching between Brian and Justin had seeped into our real lives. And, it wasn't as though I minded being touched and caressed by him. I was pretty lonely, after all, and Gale was a really great friend--who smelled incredible, grinned with a lopsided sweetness that made my heart jump a beat or two, and possessed strong fingers that knew just how to touch me.
So, maybe my ex hadn't been that far off the mark when he accused me of wanting to sleep with Gale. At the time I'd chalked it up to immaturity and irrational jealousy, but now, considering the way my body reacted to Gale's proximity and intimate contact--well, let's just say that I'd definitely have to eat my words if I ever saw my ex again.
But then Gale did something that tipped the scales. He made an overt pass, although a pass that would be obvious to no one but me.
See, back when we met, before we shot even the first scene, we sat down at a meeting to discuss the sex scenes in the Pilot. Even now we meet with Cowan, Lipman, the writers and the directors every time we have to shoot a sex scene. We go over the choreography, the emotion they are trying to capture, etc. You know, just to make sure we're all comfortable with what we're going to be doing and how much skin is going to be shown. It's all very professional, all very polite.
Well, at the very first meeting we discussed the possibility of becoming inadvertently, well, you know, aroused during the filming of the scenes, and while we thought that would be unlikely, what with the small crowd and the camera, it still seemed like a good idea to discuss certain boundaries before getting down to business.
First we were encouraged to give one another specific instructions about any potential triggers--you know, erogenous zones that respond to stimulation whether we want them to or not. It was embarrassing since we barely knew one another, but I tried to be as honest and forthright as possible. I didn't want to be making out with him, get hard and then have him flip out on me.
So, I pointed out that the region at the curve of my neck was extremely sensitive to being kissed or mouthed and that a man gripping my pelvis and pulling me against his leg was sure to make me hard. I indicated the insides of my wrist as another erogenous zone to avoid, if possible, and, of course, my dick, balls, ass and inner thighs.
Obviously, some scenes would require that some of these areas be touched or otherwise manipulated, and so long as I was aware in advance, and so long as Gale didn't mind me sporting wood, there really wouldn't be a problem.
Gale, in turn, indicated that licking behind his ears or a mouth on the back of his neck would possibly illicit a reaction. He seemed nonchalant and completely unworried about the possibility of either of us getting hard and so I went with the flow. No need to stress over something that wasn't a big deal, after all.
And it wasn't a big deal. Over the last three years we've both had instances of having erections during filming but we just ignored it and played our parts. The one time I brought it up to Gale, he said softly, "Well, I'm Brian and you're Justin, so obviously we'd be hard."
And, you know, method acting, yadda, yadda. So I let it pass. No need to push it and besides I still had my right hand and a private trailer--as well as no desire to piss off my straight-identifying friend and costar.
If Gale was in denial, it was probably best for all of us and best for the show if he stayed that way. Getting involved with your costars is a great way to fuck up your job and your life.
But then he started it.
We were filming a scene in the loft after Justin had pissed off Brian and they were making out, hot and angry. Well, we were making out hot and angry. And then I felt it--his open, wet mouth on the curve of my neck; he grabbed my hips and pulled me against his leg. I became instantly hard and when I struggled to move out of the erotic embrace, he held me fast, kissing my neck, rocking against my hip--his own erection digging in.
Our lips met again and it was heat, hot, goddamn rockets.
We rocked together, sucking on one another's lips, and he lifted my wrist to his mouth and gently scored it with his teeth, licking the indentations and repeating the action on the inside of my elbow. I was stunned, dazed, lost to sensation and, fuck, he smelled so good.
I barely heard them call, "Cut!"
Gale did, though, and he released me just like always, smoothing a hand over his hair and asking the director if that was good or did we need another take?
I stared at him, licking my lips and tasting his familiar saliva, shaking in Justin's tennis shoes.
Apparently the director had the shots he needed because Gale's hand was on my shoulder, pushing me along and I could hear his voice saying something about hot dogs for lunch, or maybe burritos, whichever I preferred.
Huh?
Wait a minute.
Wait just a goddamn minute.
"Wait a minute." I turned on him, angry and still achingly hard. I poked my finger into his chest. "Wait just a goddamn minute."
He gazed at me, hazel eyes full of worry and concern. "What? What's wrong? What are you freaking out about?"
"What? What? What do you mean 'what'?" I looked hastily over my shoulder, checking the proximity of other cast members and crew. "You just came on to me! You stepped over the Brian and Justin line into Gale and Randy territory and you know it! And now you have the fucking nerve to stand there and ask me what I'm freaking out about?"
Gale tilted his head and observed me calmly. "So, are you interested in the Gale and Randy territory?"
"No." I shook my head adamantly. "Absolutely not."
Gale nodded and shrugged. "Okay, then. So--burritos or hot dogs?"
I stared.
"Or maybe you have other plans?"
I closed my mouth which had been hanging open for way too long.
He stepped around me, saying, "Fine. I'll eat alone. No big deal."
I stood frozen. I stared after him. I was still fucking hard.
~@~@~@~
I avoided him for the next several days. We had no scenes together and I stayed in my trailer most of the time playing my guitar, (I'd decided to teach myself), or reading over potential scripts for hiatus.
It felt weird, though, not seeing him. Not having lunch with him and not talking about the latest Radiohead CD. Hal and Thea were no fun when it came to talking about music. Hal always ended up doing impressions of the lead singer or something equally horrible. I still wanted to punch him for his bastardized rendition of "Fake Plastic Trees"--I believe it was "Fake Plastic Cheese".
Gale, though, he'd nod and suggest that we hit the used CD stores and look for some good jazz or early goth on vinyl.
It was on the fourth day that he showed up at my trailer door with a bag in one hand and a pint of vanilla ice cream in the other.
"Hey."
I shrugged. "I'm still pissed at you."
"I know. Want some brownies and ice cream?"
"No."
"Hmm." Gale cast his eyes down and my heart tugged. He looked defeated. "Okay, well, I'm fresh out of plans to get you to talk to me then."
I leaned against the door jamb.
"Listen, Randy--" He broke off and started over using the nickname he typically only called me when he'd been drinking. "Listen, Randz, I don't know what to say. I just--" He stopped and shrugged again. "Hell, you can't blame a guy for trying, right?"
I groaned and let my head fall back. I knew there was no way out of this. We'd have to talk.
I stepped back into the trailer, motioning for him to follow. I started to sit down on the couch, but decided that might look like an invitation, so I sat down at the small table where we usually shared lunch if we weren't eating out somewhere. Gale always said that my trailer was cleaner, but his was always spotless. I don't know why he preferred to eat in my trailer; maybe it was to avoid the clean-up.
Gale dropped down across from me and deposited the bag of what I presumed were the aforementioned brownies and the now-leaking pint on the table. He sat hunched over and frowning, a brooding Brian look that made me smirk.
I cleared my throat. "Look, I don't appreciate having my feelings, sexual or otherwise, toyed with for kicks, okay?"
Gale looked up, eyes wide and horrified. "That's what you thought? That I was toying with you?"
I sat in silence. What else could it have been? He'd identified as straight. We were coworkers. He'd perpetrated his crime in front of a tiny army of worker bees and on film, for Christ's sake. Then he'd walked away asking about burritos and hot dogs like it was the most normal follow up to violating my personal boundaries and the agreement that had been in place since day one. Was I supposed to believe that he had been intending anything other than a prank?
"Jesus, Randz, in case you haven't noticed, you make me hot."
"I make you hot." I repeated it as a statement, but it was disbelief.
"Don't tell me you didn't know. I've been coming on to you for months."
Like a flash, like the super-zoom flash of a Queer As Folk episode, a rush of memories assaulted me. Gale's hands on my back, in my hair, his face just inches from mine, licking his lips, staring from across the room.
He'd been coming on to me for months.
So there it was. He'd started it and I'd been oblivious until he went too far. And now here I was trying to make out some sort of reaction, some sort of feeling beyond shock. How was I supposed to respond to this? Did he want me to drop to my knees and blow him? Did he want me to bend him over the couch and fuck him until he came all over the upholstery? What, exactly, was he expecting from me?
"You've been coming on to me for months." Again, statement underlined with disbelief.
"I don't know how I could have been clearer without just saying the words and I was really trying to avoid that."
"Are we on Candid Camera?"
Gale laughed and opened the bag of brownies, pulling out a gooey, chocolate confection. It looked good. "No. Should I be offended that you have so little faith in me? I can't believe you'd expect me to be so cruel. I'm not really Brian Kinney, you know"
So--
He wanted me.
What the hell did that mean exactly?
"What are you asking of me, Gale?" May as well get it all out in the open now and deal with whatever it was all at once. "I mean, is this some sort of homosexual experimentation for you?"
Gale shook his head, shoving a chunk of brownie into his mouth. "Nope."
Nope. So eloquent. So enlightening.
"Are you asking me to go steady? Where's my corsage? Where's my invitation to the homecoming dance?"
Gale chuckled and swallowed. "I was thinking that we could just do what we normally do--only with sex."
I blinked.
Sex.
With Gale.
The thought hit me like a two-by-four to the head. My cock was certainly interested and my nipples and every inch of my body.
"What about the fact you're, oh, I don't know--straight?"
Again he shrugged. "Well, really, Randy, what guy could make out with you for three years and stay straight?"
I was pretty sure that was a compliment wrapped up in a really cheesy line. Still--it was nice. "Right. Randy Harrison, sex god extraordinaire! Can convert straight men with a single kiss! Bend them to his will with a swivel of his hips! And, oddly enough, repel gay men at every turn!"
Gale laughed, not in the least perturbed by my befuddlement. "You don't repel gay men."
"Then, why, pray tell, has every guy I've gone out with in the last year not returned for a second date?"
Gale frowned and looked at his hands. "Um, because I told them that you and I were lovers?"
"What?" I slapped my hand on the table. He'd what? "You what?"
"Well, where do you think all those rumors about us came from?"
"Oh. My. God."
Gale put on the puppy dog pout. I held my breath. I would not cave.
"Randz, come on. Can't you even imagine us together? I thought you--" He looked embarrassed suddenly. "I mean, I felt--and I thought--"
I stood up and ran my hands through my hair. "Look. This is--wow. A lot of information to process, okay?"
"Yeah."
"So, really, can you just--go?"
Gale nodded, stood up, and left without another word, leaving the brownies and the ice cream behind.
I was glad. I needed them.
~@~@~@~
The next time I saw him, I was Justin and he was Brian, and then I left the set. There was none of the usual clowning or joking while filming. I'm certain that the other cast members, and especially the crew, knew that Gale and I'd had a falling out.
Or a coming out. Or something.
I had said that I needed to process, but what I really did was spend as much time as possible not processing, not thinking about it and just avoiding anything and everything that reminded me of Gale. After three years as close friends and confidantes, that was nearly everywhere in Toronto.
The one place I could definitively say had no memories of Gale attached to it was my bathtub. So, I spent a lot of time there. Considering how fucking cold Toronto can be, soaking in a nice warm bath wasn't a hardship.
On this particular Saturday morning, I brought a stack of books that I wanted to peruse, set them up on the closed toilet seat, determined to read the day away. When the water got cold, I let it out and poured a fresh tub of hot. No thoughts of sexy co-stars with mussed hair grinning at me over the top of a coffee mug. No memories of warm, wet lips sliding down my throat. No fantasies about stripping Gale's clothes off, bending him over my kitchen table, careful to keep his hard cock from being trapped uncomfortably against the edge, and opening his tight ass with a nine inch dildo, before fucking him so hard that his voice was hoarse for a week from screaming.
Nope. None of that.
Just me and my books--and a gigantic, ruthless, aching hard-on that demanded my attention every once in awhile.
I could hear the phone ringing, but I'd forgotten to bring it into the bathroom and damn if I was getting out of my nice warm tub just to hang up on a solicitor. I guess I should have noticed that the phone rang on a pretty regular interval, but I was busy traveling through the wardrobe with C.S. Lewis. It was amazing the number of sexual fantasies one can cook up from that book, especially once I started thinking that maybe the protagonist looked like a young version of Gale. Dark with large pouty lips and wide eyes--
Shit.
None of that.
I cleared my head and tried to concentrate on the book. Two more pages slid beneath my eyes, but the words didn't gel. I was far away in some fantasy world where Gale had moved in to my apartment and we cooked dinner together, laughing at Hal's antics on the set that day, arguing over the remote control. Settled the argument by rock/paper/scissors; loser got a blowjob to lessen the sting of the loss. Communal showers. Arguments over groceries. And, one night, over an amazing pasta dinner, prepared especially to celebrate the anniversary of our first fuck, Gale would finally tell me the story of that resist tattoo on his finger.
How very Gay As Blazes of me.
Shit.
Someone was banging on the door to my apartment. Hard.
I groaned and reached for the towel, pulling myself up and out of the tub, tucking the egyptian cotton around my hips. My irritation spiked as the hammering on my door continued unabated and I yelled, "Shut the fuck up! I'm coming!"
That stupid fucking Super--I'd told him last week that if he needed to get to the pipes in my apartment to do it when I wasn't home. I stomped across the living room, water dripping all over the hardwood floors. Hell, I spent forty to sixty hours a week on the set and you'd think that in my downtime I could be afforded a little peace and qui--
et.
Gale.
Shit. I should have known--or at least guessed. I clung to the half open door, shuddering as the chill from the unheated corridor poured into the room. Gale looked frantic, his hair a mess, his eyes wide and panicked.
"Hey," I said casually.
"Why the fuck haven't you been answering the phone?" Gale demanded, no preamble, just worry-sparked anger.
"Um, because I was in the bathub? And I didn't want to get out? And it's my goddamn phone and I don't have to answer it if I don't want to?" I knew I was princessing out a little, but, really, who the fuck did he think he was showing up at my apartment on a Saturday, interrupting my entirely Gale-free bath with an interrogation about my phone habits?
"I've been calling for hours."
My mind flipped through the hazy memories of the last few hours. Joyce, Yeats, phone ringing, masturbation, Kavalier and Clay, phone ringing, Joyce again, masturbation, phone ringing--and so on. Yes, I suppose he had been calling for hours.
"So?" I asked.
"So? So why the fuck didn't you answer the phone?"
"I told you, I was in the goddamn bath!" I nearly shouted and had to rein in my voice to keep from alerting the neighbors to that rather unimportant information.
Gale ran a hand through his hair. "I thought maybe you were sick, or hurt, or dead."
I stared at him, finally saying, "Morbid little fucker."
He shrugged and put a hand on the door to press his way into the apartment. When I didn't give way, his hands ended up on my chest, skimming down to my hips and he bodily moved me out of the way before he closed the door behind us. "You've been avoiding me."
Now it was my turn to shrug. "And?"
Maturity in these situations was never my strong point.
When I broke up with my last boyfriend, things got quite ugly and I'd been horrified to realize later that we'd both turned into fifth graders in the midst of that last fight. I think he even stooped to insulting my mother.
Gale's hands were still on my pelvis, holding me in place like he thought I might flee or vanish. He bowed his head, bit his lip and closed his eyes, rubbing his thumbs in the hollows of my hips. I could have pulled away and part of me was yelling, "Run, run, run!" But the rest of me was screaming, "Get closer, you fucking idiot!" Caught between my inner imperitives, I stayed still and let him fondle me.
It wasn't long before his hands moved to the folded edge of the towel, freeing it. It droppped to the floor and I stood still for his inspection. He'd seen it all before. It shouldn't have been anything new, but his eyes were heavy with lust and so hot that I felt them moving on my skin.
I can't account for what happened next. There is a skip in my memory. Because all of a sudden--
I was sitting on the bed, panting heavily, beard burn stinging on my chin and throat, watching as Gale struggled out of his jeans, one thought circling in my mind, "Fuck yeah, fuck yeah, fuck yeah--" I think I may have been saying it out loud.
I'd tasted his skin, his saliva, but never his cock and I sucked it in with my eyes open, staring up at his face, gentle ecstasy painting his features. He gripped my hair and I took him deep, pleased with his grunt of shock. I was good at it. I'd had a lot of practice.
I sucked him until I felt the swell of his orgasm against my tongue and I pulled off, tightening my fingers around the base, postponing his climax. He groaned and shook his head in denial, but I wasn't going to let him come like this. He was going to come with my cock in his ass or he wasn't going to come at all.
"Randy, Randy, Randy--" He chanted my name like he couldn't remember any other word, not even yes.
I pulled him down to the bed and he took me into his arms, rubbing against me, smelling my hair, murmuring odd things against my neck.
"I'm going to fuck you now." I said it softly, it was sweeter sounding that perhaps it might look from the outside.
Gale stiffened and then nodded slowly, rolling onto his stomach and burying his face in a pillow. I wanted to see his face when I entered him, but I didn't ask him to turn over. Penetration for the first time is a big deal and it can be a very private, intimate moment--if Gale needed his privacy, then I wanted to give it to him.
I stretched out against the line of his body, whispering in his ear, "You know what I'm going to do? Do I need to tell you?"
He nodded and then shook his head. He knew. He didn't need my instruction. I tucked a pillow under his hips and he instinctually thrust his swollen cock against it, seeking friction. I sought out the lube in my nightstand and returned to his side with gentle, calming strokes down his back.
I'd done this kind of thing before, but not with someone Gale's age, most of the virgins I'd taken had been in their early twenties. I knew if I had to be careful with them, then I needed to be vigilant in the extreme with Gale.
Penetration would be a make it or break it moment and I was probably as terrified as he was when I trailed my index finger between his ass cheeks, passing over his hole and then returning to make gentle sweeps around the pucker. His back muscles leapt nervously under my steadying hand as I pressed my finger into him. I whispered mindless encouragement as I sank in to the second knuckle, and his ass was so tight that the thought of my cock working into it made me squirt pre-come, my cock jerking with demands.
"Gale?"
His breathing was stuttered and I worried that he would back out. My cock was so hard that it made it hard for me to swallow, made it hard for me to breathe; I didn't think I could handle him backing out now.
"Yeah?" His voice gravelly, breathless.
"Okay?"
He nodded and shifted back against my fingers, wordlessly asking for more, until I worked a second finger in alongside the first, then he gasped and took a shuddery breath.
I pulled both fingers free, adding a little more lube, when he twisted and grabbed my wrist. My heart thudded in my cock and I took a long, deep breath to prevent myself from crying out in frustration. He was going to put a stop to it. I just knew it.
"Randz?"
"Yeah?" I shifted so that I could better see his eyes. He'd turned from the safety of the pillow, searching out my face.
"C'mere?"
I scooted up, ready to offer whatever comfort I could and resigning myself to a hand job at best. I told myself, "See? This is what you get for falling for a straight guy. Fucking moron!"
Settling down beside him, I held his gaze and whispered, "You okay?"
"Yeah. I just--" He looked away and dropped his head back to the pillow, hiding his face.
I rolled up onto my elbow and ran my hand down his back, the lube leaving a wet trail over his long, cut muscles. So fucking gorgeous. I took a deep breath and concentrated on the task at hand. Gale was freaking out, I had to talk him down from the ledge before this all went to shit.
"Hey, Gale--" He buried his face deeper into the pillow. "It's okay. Hey, we can stop, slow down--whatever you need. Really, it's okay."
A muffled groan was the only response. I closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose.
"I know that it can be overwhelming and maybe I pushed too fast. I should have let you come with the--"
"Randz, shut up." He was staring at me with soft, deep eyes, a small smile on his lips. "I just need to know--" He trailed off.
I heard the meaning behind the words. I swallowed, turning my head away a little, before meeting his eyes. "Yes. Yeah. Okay?"
"Okay." Gale turned his face back into the pillow, muffling the words, "I'm ready."
I took my time preparing him and I can't tell you how often I nearly stopped. He was like a skittish colt, one moment moving back against my fingers and the next pulling away, clawing at the sheets. I soothed him with my voice and my hands, and he never said stop or no, just yes and more, but it was hard for me to see the conflict played out his body.
When it was time, I slid on a condom and coated it with lube. He bent his knees up, lifting and exposing his ass--so hot it took my breath away. I ran my hands over his thighs soothingly, then crawled onto my knees and slid my cock into the nest of his ass cheeks. I curled over his back, kissing his shoulder blades and asked, "Ready?"
Gale's answer was to spread his legs further, offering himself to me. I took my cock in one fist and brushed the head across his hole. His breath hitched and I said, "Breathe now."
And on his broken exhale I sank into him. I shuddered at the tight clamp of his ass spasming around me, his body shocked at the intrusion.
Gale's surprised exhalation caught my attention and I bent down to press kisses to his back. "Okay?"
He remained silent, his breaths hitching and I couldn't stop nature, my hips moving of their own accord, rolling thrusts that took me deeper, deeper and deeper, until I was snug against him. I struggled to catch my breath, my cock jerking in his tight, hot ass.
"Gale?" I asked urgently. I didn't know how long I could hold myself.
"Do it." He sounded distant and I ran my hand down his back, caressing him gently, before slowly pulling back and pressing in. Gale jerked under me and I grabbed his hips to steady myself, thrusting in and out a little faster, a little harder. I closed my eyes as the push-pull began again, Gale alternately pressing back for more and scrambling against the bed as though trying to escape.
His breath continued to hitch and when I checked again, his face was buried deep in the pillows. I let go of myself and let my head drop to his back as my hips snapped. I changed angles and Gale leapt beneath me, a shocked sound in his throat; I held on to his hips and stroked again, hard, fast, deep.
Gale's breathing changed to a low keening peppered with my name and curses. Suddenly he stilled and a startled cry jerked me upright. I thrust again just as he came and his ass clutched my cock. I licked my lips, fucking him harder than I probably should have, but he was moaning and it sounded like pleasure, so I continued to ride him, angling for his prostate and his cock spurted with aftershocks again and again.
"Randy, oh fuck!"
I closed my eyes and grabbed his hips to hold him steady as he shook through what appeared to be another orgasm, or perhaps just an especially intense aftershock. The build of my own orgasm was close to the surface and I gave in to it as I bent to lick his back, sucking his sweet skin, tasting the salt of his sweat. I reached around and grabbed his cock, sliding my hand over the come-wet shaft before bringing my fingers to my lips and tasting him.
Good God.
I think I screamed.
It continued a long time.
Orgasm filled me like the tide and left me empty, exhausted, hunched over Gale's back and gasping sweat-salty air.
~@~@~@~
Gale was like a giant, goofy teddy bear. He wouldn't stop touching me, running his hands over my body, and when I fell asleep, he dragged me into his arms and I woke up with his face buried against my neck, drooling onto the curve of my throat.
I never knew that drooling was sexy. But apparently it causes rampant, eager, desperate hard-ons.
So I woke him up and, with a little help from his hand, took care of that problem.
Later, I lay in his arms and tried to decide how to punish him for ruining my sex life for the prior year. Pfft. Telling my dates that we were lovers just to run the guys off.
Kinda sweet actually.
I chuckled. Yeah, where had I heard that before?
~@~@~@~
I think I became addicted to Gale that day and I've needed my fix ever since. Even when things went south for awhile during Year Two, we were unable to go a week without fucking--despite separate residences and screaming fights. Maybe because of the screaming fights.
But that's in the past now, too.
In fact, I heard Gale telling my mother the other day that "this whole thing", gesturing around the house, indicating our lives together, was "all his fault", meaning me. He claimed that I'd started it and, as far as Gale was concerned, I was going to have to be the one to finish it. It only seemed fair.
Funny, because the way I remember it, Gale started the whole thing. And, I've got to say, based on the evidence of the last several years--
I don't think he'll ever finish it.
I'm okay with that.
~@~@~@~
The End