Three Variations

Gap Filler for 307
NC 17


Part 2

Note: Title and lyrics taken from “Follow Me” by Pnau.


After all this time, it’s still there. It’s right under my skin, just boiling under the surface. It’s like my body’s been waiting for your return. Just seeing you, even with someone else, makes me feel like I haven’t felt…well, since we…

I’ve been working to forget…all of it. Especially how this feels. That thing you do to me. I think I’ve actually spent time practicing how to not feel this way. Lot of fucking good that did me. Here I stand, frozen under your gaze, feeling you touch me though you’re 20 feet away. In the backroom of a crowded club, where sweat and come pour quicker than the liquor, I can still fucking smell you. From all the way over there, that distinct scent is permeating my nose, making my head swim from the familiarity of it all.

There was a time when we would have done this, eye-fucked one another from across the room, just for sport. As a little game, I'd fuck someone else, you'd fuck someone else, and all the while we'd watch each other. But in the end, we’d go home together and fuck each other. We’d wake up the next day and it would just be us. I miss that. Really, it was just a way to get to the good part. We just stood here fucking other people to prove we could. Guess it was fun in the beginning, but in the end it just…served a purpose. It just proved a point.

You and me
We'll make it further down the line
Destiny intertwined
Follow me


Part of me wants to walk away. Part of me wants to run from the fucking avalanche that is about to spill down the mountainside. The rocks are already falling around us, threatening to bury us if we don’t get out now. Yet, I find my feet planted firmly on the ground. And my dick planted firmly inside of a stranger.

This is not how I expected my night to turn out. I guess this isn’t how I expected my life to turn out. The second I saw you my plans changed, my body changed, my mind was focused on something new.

Now my balls itch, my breath is ragged – and it has little to do with anything but you. The guy attached to my dick, he doesn’t know it’s you I’m actually fucking. He thinks I’m moaning like this for him. He thinks I’m running my hands over his body. He thinks I’m throwing my head back and swaying my hips because he’s just that good. Fucking idiot. But, he’s serving his purpose, and for that I’ll have to thank him…maybe.

I look away, then you look away, then we both look back. Eyes involuntarily drawn together like magnets, we can’t stop fucking staring at each other. I force myself to keep looking just to see if you’ll turn away first. My eyes dance between your face and your cock. I haven’t really seen either of them in a long time. Not sure which I miss more.

Fuck! Part of me wants to just push this nameless asshole out of my way and drag your ass out of this hellhole and have my way with you. I probably could, well maybe…

We'll take it one step at a time
Step into these shoes of mine


I don’t know if we’re too far gone for post-relationship fucks. But of course we both know it would be more than that. We’ve always been more than that…more than a fuck. And really, I think we both came looking for just a fuck tonight. Guess we’re getting more than we bargained for. And that’s a familiar feeling.

I watch the guy, the one you’re with, and try to figure out if I’ve seen him before. I watch his hands lift the edge of your shirt. He reveals a sliver of skin on your stomach, just above the waist of your pants, and it's so fucking sexy. I want to lick the soft hairs there. I want to lick all of you.

The hotter the feeling
The deeper the meaning for us
Come with me


Fuck, I groan loudly, loving the feeling of warmth and wetness that surrounds my cock…but wishing it were you.

My back arches into the stranger as I grit my teeth, eyes roaming back over your body for the fourth or fifth time since this started. If I close my eyes a little and just focus on you, the rest of this melts away. We’re back in the bed, on the chaise, in the shower, on the rug…anywhere but here.

Baby let's take it wide
Let me be
The one to guide your way to the stars

I can feel your heart race. I can hear your breath catch in your chest. If I concentrate I can taste you.

God, I want you in this sick way…this way I’ve never wanted anyone…in a way I never will want anyone. I want to possess you until you’re mad. I want to be all you’ll ever need. But I’m not. I think we’ve already discovered that, haven’t we?

But I can see it in your eyes. That lust mirrored back at me. At least I know we still have that…that thing…that unexplainable thing. That spark that crackled in the air whenever we were both in a room. That chemistry that made the temperature rise no matter where we were. Yes, we still have that.

Follow me
Gimme, gimme, gimme your love

End

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